first day back to unit, duty =( what a day..
last night doing duty, i sit in a coner.. somehow i realize something.. is the last day of the month again. suddenly i wake up, i have been letting my self living in a world of nothing for such a long time, i have been running away from own true feeling for such along time. i have been bluffing to myself for a very long time. but isiz better from me to be like this forever?
tomorrow is the first of the month.. if u r seeing my blog think u should know what am i writing.. whenever i listing to this song "説好的幸福呢" i will think back to the past when we use to be together. till now i dont know y our relationship will become like this. we use to be a very lovely pair. i really dont know what break us apart. maybe all this are fate? but if u know me well enough, u should know i dont like fate to control me. i like to do thing my way. but this time i think i really lost to fate. fate make me hate u so deeply but at the same time make me miss u even more. if u will to ask me to say the true, whenever u ask me the question and i choose not to reply u is because i till love u. i choose to run away because i really dont know what should i do. i dont know who to keep u by my side forever, whenever we r close, u will always say something that make me feel insecure. u remember i did told u before, i only either choose to love a girl fully and trustfully if not i wont love anyone?
think u have found a new bf that can give u the love that i didn't give u? over here i can only hope that u will not get any hurt from anyone anymore. hope that he can give u all the love u need.
signing off with my heavy heart.